Showing posts with label spring. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spring. Show all posts

Saturday, May 7, 2022

So, Sing!

This weekend was supposed to be our All-Church Spring Sabbath Retreat. We were packed and ready to go when the phone calls started rolling in - covid exposure yesterday, head cold, awaiting PCR test results, just came down with something... we had to cancel. The disappointment at another event being canceled, another gathering upended, another adjusting of our plans and letting go of our expectations, is profound. 

But there is something lovely and hopeful happening too.

In Minnesota, we've had the third coldest April in recorded history. (The Twin Cities average temp was 46 degrees. It's usually in the upper 50s and 60s). It was darker, and wetter, and windier than most springs too.  We Minnesotans are attuned to our seasons. Our souls feel the shifting. We watch for signs. We relish the rhythms. We can appreciate winter because we know spring is coming.  Spring didn't come.  

Until yesterday.  Suddenly, it is warm, and sunny, and birds are singing, and green things are bursting out of the ground and we are bursting out of our houses in shirt sleeves, and garden stores are bursting at the seams with happy horticulturalists.  It feels like hope.

It brought to mind this message we shared several years ago, so I adapted and updated it and am sharing it again today.  As we embrace this unexpectedly at-home sabbath weekend for rest, renewal, attentiveness to life, presence in our present, may we Sing.




Psalm 98

 
Sing  a new song. 
Try it. 
Something completely new.  
Something you’ve never sung before.
You don’t know the words, you can barely hum the tune, but sing it anyway. 
Try it on for size…no, just jump in and belt it out.  
 
Maybe you don’t sing with the confidence you would if it were the old song, the familiar song, the song that makes sense and feels easy.  Maybe you don’t feel so comfortable with the instruments, or you worry that you’ll be singing alone. 
 
Tell you what – how about if we sing with you?  
And not just us, the whole earth – the chaotic seas will sing too, and they can’t sound more in tune than you do – the floods will clap their messy hands; just make a joyful noise, really, any noise will do.  
 
But make it loud, ok?  
Because the hills are going to join in on this, and really, the world itself, and all those who live in it.  It will be a song like no other, so get ready to sing. Are you ready?
 
This song, it means something.  
This is one reason it is a new song and not the old songs. 
 
It is not a song of proper religion.  It is not a song of patriotism, or a song of war.  It is not a lament for how terrible things are, or a song of social consciousness or commentary.  This song simply can’t be sung by ‘us and them’, or played on bandwagons or soap boxes, and it’s not a rally song, a commercial jingle, or background music in an elevator.   It’s not like the old songs in any way at all, so you need to let all those go if you’re really going to sing this song.
 
This is not a lullaby we’ll be singing, here, this song is more of a wake up and take notice type song.  It is a remember and never, ever, ever forget kind of song.  It is a song for all the times when you were treated unfairly, and not only you, but all of those who were treated unfairly, ever – even by you. 
It is a song for the times you were overlooked and undervalued, the times you were nothing but a number, or a diagnosis, or an accessory, or a liability.  
 
This is a song for the ravaged and destroyed creation; over the parched, burning and starving earth, it sings crashing seas and clapping floods and quenching rain. And where she’s drowning in sorrow it lifts the ground from waterlogged sludge, and drapes it gently over the line to dry in the tender breeze and warm sun. It’s that versatile and powerful a song.
 
This is a song for all the times when evil won, and those times were many and great - countless, or so we thought - it sings right in the face of those times, it thrusts it’s wide eyes and unquenchable joy right up under the nose of those times and opens its mouth and belts out with all gusto right into the shocked and startled face of evil, knocking it down on its bottom to stare up in stunned standstill at the wild and mighty sound of the song.  
 
This is a song of justice that tears through the paper thin fragility of justice and liberty for all, that lifts up all the incidences – every single one – where injustice and oppression were really the rule, where lives didn’t matter as much as money, where people were forsaken for power – the song, you will hear it, has every one of their voices, loud and strong, vindicated and joyful, each forsaken child, every cheated worker, and every single starving, sick, disregarded or devalued human being that has ever been, all the silenced and ignored and unheeded voices will rise together in a sound so great that it shatters glass ceilings into a million pieces, reduces palaces to rubble and grinds diamonds to dust, a sound so powerful it drowns out every bomb and bullet and lie and label, and quakes opens the prisons and graves and sets the captives free.  
 
So get ready, because this is some song. 
 This is not just any song, it is the song of the earth for her king, her Creator; this is a song of all things made right.
 
But you know, this song, actually, is kind of a dangerous song.  
It is not a song for the faint of heart.  
We already discovered you don’t need to really know the words, or even the tune, you don’t have to have practiced or learned this song, in fact, there is really no way to do so, you just sing it.  
But you have to be willing to sing it. 
Are you willing to sing it?  
 
Because if you hear this song you can’t ever go back. 
You can’t pretend you didn’t hear it.  You can’t be the way you were before you sang it.  It changes you, but not just you; it changes everything. So, if you’re comfortable with how things are, I mean, if you don’t really want to see things too terribly different, than you’d better not sing the song. 
Just to be safe.  
 
Because there are no secrets once this song has been sung.  
There is nothing hidden that doesn’t get revealed.  
And all the things that look strong, or sure, or important, they might seem kind of silly and stupid once you hear this song.  
So, if you care a whole lot about those things, better not to sing it, at least not just yet.  Let them get tarnished first, broken in, disappointing. Let the expectations get a little bit dashed and the frustration build a bit, because this song is for everyone and everything, except it is NOT a song for the satisfied.  
 
It is not a song for the secure and the worthy, for the strong and the powerful, and it certainly doesn’t make you right or tell you who’s wrong. 
 It kind of makes a joke of all that, and if that is where you’re at, better to cover your ears and turn away for as long as you can stand it before it overpowers you, because you’re going to be really cut down to size and I can’t imagine that will be a very pleasant experience.  
 
But once you are, there is a place for you in this song too.  
Actually, it’s kind of the only way you can join in the song, is when you know that in singing it, you pass judgment on yourself, but you sing it anyway. 
 
Because – and this is the most important part, maybe I forgot to say this – the song is not about you.  
It’s actually not really about any of us, or anything we know or have done or ever will do.  
It’s about God.  
It’s all about God.  
It’s about what God has done and what God will do.  
It’s about God who does things, and doesn’t just watch it all and keep to Godself.  
But God watches too, and doesn’t miss a thing either, so there is nothing, nothing that doesn’t get made right in this song. 
 
It sounds like kind of a lot, and it is, actually. 
It’s everything.  
Way more than you or I could ever bear. 
Way more joy, and justice, than we would know what to do with in a thousand lifetimes.  
But we don’t really need to worry about it.  
We just need to pay attention. 
 
 The chorus is coming.  And when you’re paying attention, you get to see that it has already started. Here and there it startles you, or makes you cry for no reason, or gives you a weird thrill of recognition and irrational hope. 
 
 We’ve found ways to explain it away, the crazies, the anomalies, the exceptions, the sentimental or insane, but they’re not, really, they’re the song, peaking through the frayed seams, busting through a rip in the knee or a tear in a button-hole of the fabric of our so-called reality.  
 
The stranger stands and shouts a few notes before helping someone off the bus. The man on the overpass with the sign grips the change in his fist and hollers a bit of the melody into the passing traffic below. Neighbors lying side by side through the night echo defiant snippets through train tunnels –the tune bounces off the walls and wraps around the sleeping grandmothers and shopkeepers, while bombs drop overhead. Our own winter-weary bodies vibrate with the symphony of the overjoyed soil as we plunge our parched hands into the teeming universe below and turn our spent souls upward toward the sun. 
 
In fact, all over the world, if we just know how to listen, above us, beneath us, before us and afterwards too, we’ll hear that the song has begun; and the very earth itself is humming in anticipation.  Just lift your gaze to drifting clouds and breathe, or tune your ears to the skittering, chirping creature commotion.  Close down the computer, shut off the phone, turn off the tv and the lights and curl up at an open window as the day slips into night and crickets and katydids hold steady chorus beneath the city sounds. 
The noise is building.
 
And we, you and I, together, we sing the song. It’s what we do.  
It’s why in the world we come together and do this thing called worship that accomplishes nothing at all, as any reasonable person familiar with the old songs could tell you.
We come together to share the song, to remember the truth, to recount the steadfast love of our Lord, the coming and sharing and dying and rising, backwards and upside down, breaking in and spilling out, never ending and always persisting salvation of our God-with-us. 
We warm up our voices and pipe out a few notes in defiance of the deafening silence, in far-fetched musical mutiny to the grating discord of the world around us, and really, on its behalf, because like it or not, ready or not, the song is coming.  
 
So you might as well sing along.
 

Saturday, May 2, 2020

How it works

Daily Devotion - May 2

I will send a brief message each day (except Mondays)
while we are pausing gathering in person.
- Kara


Today is a perfect Minnesota Spring day.  The grass is electric green, the sun is warm, and the air feels like it's holding you.  On our walk, Andy commented on this phenomenon in Minnesota - where our world goes so all in with each season that, just a few weeks apart, you can't even remember what it felt like to be in the last season. 

Right now, to even imagine being a locked in the bitter, icy, snow-muzzled, dead of winter feels like a foreign country or a distant memory.  And it's so glorious outside it's hard to anticipate the inevitable muggy, mosquito-laden heat of summer just around the corner.  Today is so completely and fully Spring, there is no alternative for our mind or body to even contemplate.  
We Minnesotans are used to being in the present moment - fully in whatever is now, at least as far as the environment around us is concerned.  

My daughter and I set up her fairy garden today. (We are waiting for the white stones to come in the mail that she will use to make paths).  But the setting up of the fairy garden is our active participation in the arrival of Spring - a sure marker for us of moving from one reality- one season - to the next. (Now I need only to hang all the winter coats in the basement closet and finally put away the boots and it will be official).

As we wandered the beauty of the earth on our many walks this day, we were also finding the grief come up again at the canceled Spring plans and unknown Summer plans, and tried to be gentle with ourselves about it.  
It has been 47 days since we started this Quarantine in our house.  A whole season, it feels like.  It's hard to even remember or relate to what life was like before.  But in the today, we are living just fine.  We are weathering what comes and we are surviving.  We are finding pockets of peace and moments of joy, and it is life, just like life is always life.   

Here's what life as a Minnesota has taught me:  Feeling like this is all there is is part of the deal.  But that doesn't make it true.  It just makes it real.  And when the next season arrives, this will feel like a distant memory or a foreign land, hard to even conjure up in our imaginations, so real will be the next thing. Because that's how it works.



So, Happy Spring, and a Blessed Quarantine to you.


CONNECTING RITUAL:
Perhaps tonight at bedtime, whenever that is in each of our homes, we might pray in this way and so join our hearts.

Let's take up the Evening Prayer again...

Lord it is night.
The night is for stillness.
Let us be still in the presence of God.

It is night after a long day.
What has been done has been done;
what has not been done has not been done.
Let it be.

The night is dark.
Let our fears of the darkness
of the world and of our own lives
rest in you.

The night is quiet.
Let the quietness of your peace enfold us,
all dear to us, and all who have no peace.

The night heralds the dawn.
Let us look expectantly to a new day,
new joys, new possibilities.
In your name we pray.
Amen.


- New Zealand Prayerbook

Saturday, April 25, 2020

Six feet apart and grinning

Daily Devotion - April 25

I will send a brief message each day (except Mondays) 
while we are pausing gathering in person.
- Kara

  

Spring has EXPLODED in the Twin Cities.  We are doing our best to social distance, giving each other wide berth, but we are all craving, longing to be OUTSIDE.
Humans are suddenly everywhere.

Today is a day to feel joy because it's contagious.  We are not WITH others, but we are NEAR them - bikes, rollerblades, strollers and so many walkers.  The motorcycles are out; the dogs are abundant. Hammocks hang double high hither and thither.  It's 70 degrees. So we're out in shorts, sandals, bare feet, masks covering grins, or bare grins - six feet apart and grinning. It feels hopeful.

Suddenly we are wishing we owned a frisbee. Suddenly we are digging out the old, dog-chewed football and finding some public-feeling grass under wide sky.

It's Diane's 75th birthday today.  And the whole Parkway is celebrating.  Thousands are honking their best wishes.
















And if today is still hard, or newly hard, or hard again, peace to you.
It's ok for it to be hard.  We will hold hope for you.  And when it's hard for some of us and you're feeling the joy, you will hold hope for us.  We take turns. That's how it works.

Here's a spring poem from Mary Oliver. Because the birds are everywhere today too.


Such Singing in the Wild Branches
by Mary Oliver

It was spring
and I finally heard him
among the first leaves––
then I saw him clutching the limb

in an island of shade
with his red-brown feathers
all trim and neat for the new year.

First, I stood still
and thought of nothing.
Then I began to listen.

Then I was filled with gladness––
and that's when it happened,

when I seemed to float,
to be, myself, a wing or a tree––
and I began to understand
what the bird was saying,

and the sands in the glass
stopped
for a pure white moment
while gravity sprinkled upward

like rain, rising,
and in fact
it became difficult to tell just what it was that was singing––
it was the thrush for sure, but it seemed

not a single thrush, but himself, and all his brothers,
and also the trees around them,
as well as the gliding, long-tailed clouds
in the perfect blue sky–––all of them

were singing.
And, of course, so it seemed,
so was I.
Such soft and solemn and perfect music doesn't last

For more than a few moments.
It's one of those magical places wise people
like to talk about.
One of the things they say about it, that is true,

is that, once you've been there,
you're there forever.
Listen, everyone has a chance.
Is it spring, is it morning?

Are there trees near you,
and does your own soul need comforting?
Quick, then––open the door and fly on your heavy feet; the song
may already be drifting away.



CONNECTING RITUAL:

Perhaps, today at dinner, or at bedtime, whatever time that is in each of our homes, we might pray in this way, and so join our hearts:

That your glory blazes at midday warmth
coaxing buds and humans out into the sun
that the glory of the everlasting world
shines in this world
growing from the ground
and issuing forth in every creature,
that glory can be handled, seen and known
in the matter of earth and human relationships
and the most ordinary matters of daily life,
thank you for assuring me, O God.
Thank you for revealing glory 
the ordinary gifts of this day.
Amen.

(adapted from J Philip Newell, Sounds of the Eternal)

Saturday, March 28, 2020

Rain instead

Daily Devotion - March 28

I will try to send a brief message each day (except Mondays) while we are pausing gathering in person.
- Kara

my neighbor's tulips
my neighbor's tulips

Have you stepped outside yet today, Minnesota friends?
Do it.
Then breathe in deeply.
Again.

It rained last night.
And it is supposed to rain all weekend.
We've been annoyed about that in my house -  we had big weekend plans to be outside. We cleaned the yard and "opened the deck" last night-  which is to say, we scrubbed it down and put out the deck furniture, moved the grill into place, ready for our first big outdoor meal this weekend.

But we got rain instead.
So much rain. All weekend long.

This morning, though, first thing out of bed, I stepped outside and I breathed.

My friend called it "fresh scrubbed air," and that's what it is.  That's what the unexpected feel of the cool, heavy, humid air on my skin and the deep earth smell did to me; it made me feel like this is a fresh scrubbed day, and I am a fresh scrubbed person.

A few days ago, someone said to me, "Let's share some things that haven't been canceled...."  
And so here is one: Spring.

The snow pile in the shady spot in the back corner of our yard is almost gone. The wet leaves from last Fall tucked around the edges of the house are begging to be raked. The tulips are poking up through the dirt next to the neighbor's stretch of sidewalk.  The thaw is almost over, the life is percolating underneath waiting to burst out. Birds are louder and squirrels more brazen. We are stir crazy and so is the earth - it's ready for new life to emerge.

But nature is not in a hurry.  She has her own steady pace. She takes her time.  And the rain is part of that.  Even the slushy half-snow rain that is coming on Sunday can't cancel Spring, and indeed, is helping it along.

I read this morning somewhere some version of, "There's hope, maybe not the hope we hoped for, but hope nonetheless."

So, welcome, rain. Welcome, Spring.
Let's breathe it in and watch what it brings.

CONNECTING RITUAL:

Here's a blessing from David Steindl-Rast's 99 Blessings:

Blessing 79
Source of all blessings,
You bless us with summer rain -- starting with a smell all its own when drizzle settled the dust, 
turning into a calm flow, then becoming a steady stream, sleepy and unhurried, that falls all day
(and the next and the next), till time stands still: making the earth soft and rich and the grass green.
May I let its voice so quiet my mind that I become for all around me like mild rain.


Perhaps today at some point of pause, whatever time that is in each of our homes, we might follow this pattern and write/pray our own blessing:

Source of all blessings...
You bless us with:
May I:


If you do write one, please email it to me. I'll share them on Tuesday.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Spring, Sabbath, and the Hesitant Hermit

Yesterday I had to stop walking and take off my sunglasses to gape at the amazing colors in front of me – a hot pink tree in full flower, set against a backdrop of emerald green grass meeting a cloudless rich blue sky with a garden of dazzling yellow and vivid red tulips in between. Everywhere you look this unusual year, spring is in full force. The dead landscape has reignited and the shoots are pushing up out of the ground into the bright sunshine.
            I took my first 24-hour completely solo retreat last week.  They called me “the hermit” when they showed me to my tiny cottage off the beaten path and delivered my meals in a picnic basket.  I spent the time wandering the woods, sitting on a tree suspended over a rushing stream, reading, writing, drinking hot tea and listening to the sounds of the forest all around me – owls, squirrels, birds of all kinds, the clacking of 160 foot tall trees as their tops leaned and bumped, greeting each other in the wind far above the forest floor.  I rattled around my hermitage and struggled to quiet myself.  I tried to be in “Sabbath time”; I worked hard to rest.  I brawled a lot with “should” and argued back and forth with “how,” and desperately sought the patience to tolerate the incessant chatter in my head that drowned out the silence.  And I remembered again that Sabbath-keeping is hard
Finally, I settled into the realization that whatever I did or didn’t do, whatever it is supposed to look like or ought to be didn’t matter.  Really. What mattered was that I allowed myself to be. To be in the present. To be with myself. To be however I was and not to judge it, not to squash it into a certain shape, or trade it away for some other, better way of being.  Just to be me.  What mattered was that I paid attention to how I was, and allowed myself to simply be.  There are so many layers on top of who I am as a person, as a human being: job, family, expectations, tasks, ideals, goals. These things dictate me; they direct most of my time and actions. I am addicted to the adrenaline of always going; I am a great do-er. I am a lousy be-er.  I watched chimpmunks and wild turkeys race through the trees, butterflies land on leaves in the sunlight, and thought about what a gift it was to be there.  Just to eat, sleep, walk, and not to do anything.  And the hardest and best part of the gift was the time and space to recognize how difficult this is for me.  What did I accomplish? What did I produce during that time?  Did I spend the hours wisely?  Those questions are utterly irrelevant in Sabbath time. 
The purpose of Sabbath time, the reason to keep sacred space, is to return to the ground of our being.  To be.  That this is difficult reveals how very necessary it is.  The fact that we will most often wonder if we are doing it right indicates how addicted to doing we are.
There is no one right way to keep Sabbath time.  There are lots of great suggestions and ideas for what to do with the time, (and I am happy to share some with you if you are finding Sabbath-keeping as hard as I sometimes do).  But the important thing is not what you do.  It’s that you stop doing long enough to just be.  To be you.  To be before God and with your own self the way that you really are.   To pause and take off the sunglasses to see the colors.  To listen to the sounds both outside and inside of yourself. 
I took home a few surprises from my retreat (other than the large birch branches outside the church building).  I came home grateful – deeply thankful for my husband and kids and amazed at them and the astounding gift of sharing life with them.  I came home feeling more settled inside – I did not work for or expect this, it just happened.  I came home feeling renewed energy, hope and joy in what God is doing in and through our congregation, and more deeply connected to each person that makes up this lovely and quirky little part of Christ’s body.  And I felt more humor and patience, and aware that in all my doing, God has humor and patience for me. 
May your Sabbath time be blessed.

Photos from Tonya Hansen Toutge - taken out her window at work today...
This post appears as an article in the LNPC May-June Newsletter

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Simulating Spring

Daylight savings time changed today, and it is 60 degrees outside.
60 degrees.
If you are not a Minnesotan, you can't appreciate the significance of this in our lives.  March's snowfall is second only to December's, and we still have a good month and a half of winter left. But suddenly two feet of snow is gone in just over a week, and the kids are dogs are splashing through the muddy yard and it smells like spring.
Going outside in shirt sleeves makes us giddy, but it creates a strange anxiety when it is this beautiful out this early in the season.  We are a hardy people, strong and flexible. We can take whatever Mother Nature throws at us.  Two feet of snow on Halloween? No problem!  Two weeks of sub-zero temperatures?  We can handle it!  But teasing us about Spring - that is something that could bring these marathoners to our knees.  The way to make it through winter - especially in these last months when the rest of the country is posting pictures of their budding tulips on facebook - is to hang on through the ups and downs of our winter and not even hope for spring yet, which comes as April turns to May.  "Keep your head down and your right arm pumping" as they say.
We don't know what to do with this weather.  There truly is a pit in my stomach, an anxious roller coaster of emotions as I throw open my windows to let the breeze into a house that has been closed up for 4 months and hear my husband say to the neighbor (because we stand around and "visit" with our neighbors when the weather turns nice), that he is "trying not to get his hopes up."  I want to go right now and buy seeds for my garden, I want to box up the winter coats and pull out the spring clothes. I want to make smoothies and salads and grilled meats for dinner, and tuck the chili and pot roast recipes deep into the recipe box and forget about them for a while.
But I have been a Minnesotan for the better part of three decades, and I know that even though it looks like spring is coming, we are still in winter.  Quit playing with us, world. I don't think my heart can take it.
But seeing my children squealing in the sunshine, and my husband chatting with the neighbor, hearing cacophony of birds at my window, and smelling the deep earthy scent of mud, I've decided that, for today, I am going to surrender to the brutal charade and play along.  I'll mop up the pieces of my broken, melted heart when the next snowfall comes.
Fire up the BBQ and pull out the potato salad.
We're playing Spring!

 March 2, 2007
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