Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 9, 2025

The Book Has Launched!

 


Our book came out!


We've done a couple of podcast / interviews and, you guys, this is an excellent practice forum for letting go - because I HATE being interviewed. I feel so uncomfortable and out of control, so, here we go! 

We've also just been launched into empty nesthood and, Lord have mercy on me, the letting go of this stage is no joke.

So - coming at you as fellow pilgrims - learning as we go about accepting the uncontrollable and being present in this life with each other as pastors, parents and people, open to being encountered and transformed by something we can't make happen but can only receive and participate in.

Hope you enjoy it! 

I'll update links to reviews, podcasts and interviews here as they come: 





Sunday, January 15, 2023

Ordinary Miracles and Ongoing Epiphany

 



Adoration of the Magi, Andrea Mantegna, c. 1495-1505.

When Epiphany dawns, the swaddling clothes have long been packed away in the attic of the peaceful little home, with room for a workshop that Joseph had rented them in Bethlehem, not too far from THE stable, actually, but near enough to town that he got a little business, enough to keep food on the table. 

And to be honest, since the night when the shepherds and angels and everyone showed up in a wild blur of glory and honor, life has been kind of quiet. Mary and Joseph are far from the people and place they’d call home, no grandparents pitching in or aunties around offering advice through Jesus’ first fever, first tooth, first words, first steps. Leaning on their new community for connection and support.  This was not how they imagined their family life would start- not even once they rearranged their imaginings to include God-incarnate crawling across the living room floor.  Other than that one time Aunt Elizabeth and Uncle Zechariah came to visit, commiserating over sleepless nights and nursing woes while the babies gurgled together on a blanket on the floor, it has mostly been just the three of them, mama, dada and Jesus, getting to know each other, gently becoming a family.  Week to week, season to season, it’s an ordinary life. 

 

Until the pagans show up and call their kid the king of the Jews.  

 

Just when the story begins to lose its hard edges, when the nostalgia starts to descend and the lens begins to soften, when this baby has begun to feel like he is theirs, a reminder that he is not arrives in the form of sages from a far-off land, astrologers, scientist mystic-scholars who had been watching the skies for signs of God.  

Surprising, perhaps, that those with no personal stake in the story generational anticipation of a Messiah, or claim to Yahweh’s promises to the people claimed by Yahweh, are the ones Yahweh involves next. Their arrival bursts the domestic bubble and exposes the light to all the world.  

 

Epiphany, we call this day. Enlightenment. Aha!  When the scene is illuminated what was familiar and known one second look completely other and utterly amazing the next, often because you suddenly see things with a broader perspective, or through the eyes of another. 

The Christmas moment speaks God WITH US, Epiphany says GOD with us.  


Attention! Sweet and cuddly though he is, folks, this isn’t your own private Messiah.  He belongs to the whole earth! And all who live upon it belong to this little one who has settled himself contentedly here in your lap.  You are recipients of this miracle as much as the next person, of course, but with just as little sense of what it all means as the rest of us, maybe even less, actually, than these astonishing strangers who have arrived on your doorstep seem to grasp.

 

After this great entourage of exotic travelers that have flooded this quiet, provincial town exchange greetings with his parents and bestow their gifts on the child (and there were certainly many of them, of course; what a silly modern assumption that there were just three, because one gift a piece), after the camels have been tended to and bedded down, the tents erected and the strangers washed up and unpacked, I love the crazy, cozy image of lamps lit, table set, Mary and Joseph and their surprise visitors all crowded around an unexpected potluck of fragrant dishes. Wall to wall humans, who look different and smell different and wear different clothing and speak different languages, and whose paths never, ever should have crossed on this planet in any conceivable way, breaking bread together, drinking wine together, sharing together what used to be mostly their own private secret that nobody else could relate to. Perhaps tomorrow they’ll invite the shepherds back over for breakfast.

 

These travelers, who have journeyed over desert and mountains, through seasons and struggles, countless freezing nights and endless scortching day, driven by a quest through unknown to arrive at the very source. And then, from the moment they lay eyes on the child, and Mary and Joseph lay eyes on them, the cosmic cat is out of the bag, so to speak.

 

The ego-maniacal King Herod is now chomping at the bit to stamp out this newly discovered threat to his power, and the news is out, things are not business as usual; God has really come, the world is topsy-turvy and strangers from a strange land are visiting that nice couple down the street, normal as you please.  And it’s as though that one lone star now shatters into a trillion pieces, filling the sky with bright mess, scattering shards of radiance from one end of the globe to the other.

 

Of course they stayed a while, these unexpected guests.  After all, it took many months, maybe years, to get there, they’re not just spending one night and leaving.  So what was it like, adjusting to being next to the miracle for a while?  Was it all the more miraculous for its ordinariness? 


How did it feel to go from a distant star and a lifelong, theoretical quest for truth to a flesh and blood child who threw bawling toddler tantrums when he needed a nap, smeared hummus on the dog, and belly-laughed when daddy tickled him with his beard?  

Because here’s a truth, miracles are almost never as sexy in person as they’re built up to be.  

 

What was it like for Mary and the strangers from the East to fall into some daily patterns together, to have almost nothing humanly in common and yet get one another at a cellular level, sharing in a reality nobody else on earth yet sees, representing to each other by their presence that this really is real. God has really come; the world is being redeemed.  This wonky little collection of folk are now church, if church means, and I think it does, the people gathered around Jesus wondering together who God is, and watching together what ,God is up to. But also, maybe, getting annoyed because they load the dishwasher wrong and forget to take their shoes off in the house?

 

And then after the long visit, and the dreamt warning not to go back to Herod, and the Magi bypassing Jerusalem to return home by another road - (Oh, wasn’t Herod steaming mad when then never swung back by the palace! Didn’t he pace on his balcony with his eyes on the horizon day after day, the realization slowing dawning after one week, two, three, that they were NOT coming back, and there wasn’t a darn thing he could do about it!) - Just after the hugs and blessings and goodbyes, the little family turns back inside, sighing, and expecting, perhaps, that life might return to normal: normal is redefined again. 

Epiphany keeps going, you see.  It doesn’t actually let you turn back. 

By its very nature Epiphany’s path is almost always that of another road.

 

The new road is revealed when, three years after the one who told him not to be afraid to take Mary as his wife, an angel messenger invades Joseph’s dreams, saying, Take the child and his mother and flea, right now, go to Egypt. Get up! NOW.  And it’s your turn, Joseph, to be the strangers from a foreign land.

God-with-us, who was born in a stable is now transient and homeless, and you along with him, foreigners in a foreign land.  

 

Some traditions hold that the little family settled in Egypt with the Ishmaelites, that they were received warmly by the way other side of the family tree, way back before Egypt became the land of captivity, the place from which Yahweh delivered the Israelites from slavery, back from the time when it was all the same trunk, the roots, the beginning. Father Abraham - father of us all, descendants as numerous as the stars.

 

It’s like baby God is on a sightseeing tour of the greatest hits. 

I have been at this project for quite some time, you see…

 

So to the land of Egypt they went, (part of the Roman Empire at the time), seeking safety and welcome in the hospitality, hearts and homes of strangers, who are all part of the whole great story anyway, while back home among the children of Israel, the so-called “King of the Jews” Herod’s terrible wrath and fear ordered the deaths of all male children under two in an effort to stamp out the light of the world before the flame caught and spread.

 

Then it was fulfilled what had been spoken through the prophet Jeremiah: ‘A voice was heard in Ramah, wailing and loud lamentation, Rachel weeping for her children; she refused to be consoled, because they are no more.’

 

And I hate that part of the story and will never understand it, and don’t have a whole lot to say about it, except to notice both that God’s love doesn’t keep madness from happening but suffers it with us, coming as a homeless, transient peasant child, whose identity is revealed to nameless sheep-herders and pagan foreigners and NOT to the powers that be, no matter how loudly they rattle their sabers and fiercely they demand to be in on the secret, and also that as sweeping and awful as Herod’s act of terrible evil was, it seemed not to make a dent whatsoever in the God-with-us project. And while Herod himself is long dead and gone, love endures forever, profoundly and mightily, and every single day God-with-us is with us, transforming our shared life, bringing belonging and hope, redemptive kindness and healing care, and continuing to break through the darkness with light, every moment of every day.


After Herod’s death the little family finally journeys to Galilee, where they settle down at home amid grandparents and lifelong neighbors, to raise their first-grader in Nazareth, where he will run through the same streets, swim in the same streams, sit in the same school and participate in the same synagogue they did, in the tiny familiar world that had cradled and shaped them before their lives were ripped open by the light of the world.  

 

How was little Jesus shaped by those early wanderings, I wonder? 

What did he absorb from the Magi and the Egyptians, from the journeys and the dreams, and then from those who shaped his sense of home?  How did Epiphany bend his path?

 

And what about those Magi? The journeyers, soul friends and miracle sharers who brought epiphany onto the scene as much as they received it themselves?  What became of their lives after their encounter with the light of the world? How were they drawn into a lifetime of attunement to epiphany?

 

Epiphany keeps going, friends. The light of the world shimmers in our very own lives. And nobody gets to own this story – this story holds us all. It can’t be domesticated. What God is doing is always bigger, always more, always beyond us, and also right here next to us, in the minutia of our very ordinary lives. It pierces the darkness, the horrors, the loneliness, the wandering. It shares the awkward and unknown, the familiar and the comforting, the strange and the new, the death and the life, drawing us out into worlds we can’t imagine, bringing us home by roads we can’t foresee. 

 

Today we get star words. They are not magic. But they are a chance to lift our heads and look beyond ourselves with hearts open to however Christ might encounter us, attentive to wherever God might lead us this year. God is with us, transforming the world. 

So, arise, shine, beloved, your light has come. 

Happy Epiphany.

 



 

Thursday, April 30, 2020

step by single step

Daily Devotion - April 30

I will send a brief message each day (except Mondays)
while we are pausing gathering in person.
- Kara




Jan Richardson has a blessing that begins this way:

For Those Who Have Far to Travel
A Blessing for Epiphany

If you could see
the journey whole,
you might never
undertake it,
might never dare
the first step
that propels you
from the place
you have known
toward the place
you know not.


Call it
one of the mercies
of the road:
that we see it
only by stages
as it opens
before us,
as it comes into
our keeping,
step by
single step.


There is nothing
for it
but to go,
and by our going
take the vows
the pilgrim takes:

to be faithful to
the next step;
to rely on more
than the map;
to heed the signposts
of intuition and dream;
to follow the star
that only you
will recognize;

to keep an open eye
for the wonders that
attend the path...


It is very hard for me to relate to journey metaphors right now. (In the same way, home metaphors are not really working for me either - as the place that beckons you back, the place you long for, the place you feel best. Nope. Not right now).

But this journey-centered blessing "For Those Who Have Far To Go" speaks to something that does feel really real: not knowing where we are going. We don't know where any of this is going.

"If you could see the journey whole, you might never undertake it, might never dare the first step that propels you from the place you have known toward the place you know not."

If we could see, on the front end, where we would end up and what it would take to get there - and if we had any kind of choice about it - we'd likely say, NO THANKS.

But this is true of every valuable thing that has ever happened to me, every significant experience that has ever shaped me.  Great transformation is gutting and painful, beautiful and really hard.  There is gift in not knowing what's ahead.

Last night Andy and I were lamenting about what I kept ruminating on all day yesterday, turning the phrase over in my mind and whispering it to myself: this perpetual present.  This virus and quarantine have taken away the future - at least for now.  In my house, we do so much dreaming about and planning for the future.   Even dread is some form of looking forward that meets a need for anticipation. That's all been taken from us for the time being.  So all we have is the time being, and being in this time.

"Call it one of the mercies of the road: that we see it only by stages as it opens before us, as it comes into our keeping, step by single step."

This will change us, (I'm going to go ahead and claim) mostly for the better. Losing things we don't choose to lose, adapting in ways we wouldn't choose to adapt, stripping away the excess and narrowing our focus to the now - all these things are changing us.
And we don't have to know how, or what we will be or do with that change - in fact, there is no way we can know.  And so perhaps that is one of the mercies - not just of the road but of the staying put too: the map is gone, the anticipation is paused, the plan is thwarted, the road is closed.  We just have to keep living this one life we get, constricted though it is, and trust that the work is being done in us.

"There is nothing for it but to go, and by our going take the vows the pilgrim takes: to be faithful to the next step; to rely on more than the map; to heed the signposts of intuition and dream; to follow the star that only you will recognize; to keep an open eye for the wonders that attend the path..."

So, here's to another night and another day of this standing-still kind of journey we are all on together, and to not knowing what's ahead.  We have far to travel, friends.  Step by single step.  May we be faithful to what's right in front of us, attend to our intuition and dreams, and keep our eyes open to the wonders right here in front of us.

(Some thoughts about the insight and impact of this were shared a few weeks ago in Sabbath Lessons in Quarantine Time).

CONNECTING RITUAL:

A few years ago Lisa Larges created this way of praying for a prayer station we used in worship. It is way praying that acknowledges that God is with us in absolutely every moment. Instead of looking back at a day, or week, and asking "Where was God?" We assume God to be there, and we recollect any moment, and examine it for the presence and activity of God.

MEMORY PRAYER
Reflect back on your day (or week).  Find a moment that was meaningful to you. It may have been a conversation, something you heard or read, a connection with someone, or something that caught your attention in the natural world.

First line:   describe in a few words what you remember.
Second line:    name how God was alive, at work, or present in that moment.
Third line:   offer thanks.


It might look like this:

I remember a long phone call with a good friend. 
God was in the support, laughter, honesty and listening.
I give thanks for friendship.

I remember a quiet morning, before my people were awake.
God was present in the stillness.
I give thanks for new days.


I remember a painful argument with my brother.
God was in the space for hard truths to be spoken.
I give thanks for relationships that endure.

Do a few of them. Write them down if you wish.

I remember... 
God was...
Thank you for...

I remember...
God was...
Thank you for...

Perhaps tonight at bedtime, whenever that is in each of our homes, we might pray in this way and so join our hearts.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

The Journey Unfolding


I have kept a journal since junior high school.  At times more consistently and faithfully than others, but always coming back as a touchstone, a place where I record my thoughts and dreams, experiences and encounters. In the moment you often don’t think much about what you’re writing – at least for me, the writing itself was a way of living more fully into the experience, and I never intended that they be read later on. 
But I bet that laying these stacks of notebooks side by side and reading through them would tell a story – the story of my life the way it went, not how I thought it should or would go, not how I planned it or hoped – though those hopes and plans are in there too – achieved, unfulfilled, fleeting or tenacious – they are there and they are certainly part of the story.   But also revealed would be the way the writer was changed by the journey itself, the way I grew and my perspective shifted, dreams were altered as they became reality or drifted into impossibility, goals adapted as who I am continued to unfold by the experiences and encounters that contributed to my being and my world, and I write about them in my journal.
Today we have before us two journal entries of sorts.
The first is a dream, John’s dream of the future, God’s future, God’s promise of what will ultimately be.  Chaos gone, things as they are meant to be.  God living right there, side by side with people, wiping every tear from their eye.  Death will be no more, mourning and crying and pain will be no more.  All things made new.
John has a dream and writes it down – can you ever be the same after such a dream?  How would the story of life unfold differently when you have an idea that this was its end?  How would your own awareness change when you looked at life around you every day, the pain and suffering that will one day be no more, the joy and connection that is a foretaste of eternity, how would such an awareness change you?

The second journal entry we have before us is a travel journal.  When Andy and I went around the world 10 years ago, my journal resembled this.  There are entries that read things like, “We sailed from Greece to Italy, being delayed a day in a rundown seaside town waiting for a ferry with a schedule change. We spent the night shivering and dozing in the cramped belly of a rocking boat, after offering to pay any amount for a cabin with a bed and finding them all booked.  I slept on the floor with my head on a chair, and Andy lay crumpled in a miserable heap with food poisoning, while people snored or talked all around us all night long until the chilly dawn finally docked us in Italy.”
The interesting thing about travel journals is the disparity between the plans you have in advance, and the actual way the trip unfolds. The itinerary is often very different from the trip itself.  We had meant to take a bus from Egypt to Israel but things got more dangerous and we ended up buying plane tickets over the phone in Singapore at the last minute.  Or the way our two weeks of intended scrimping and backpacking in Cairo wisely became 4 luxurious days at the Cairo Hilton and seeing sights in style instead.  The foolishly optimistic 26 country rail pass we cashed in when we got home because we’d already been to over a dozen and didn’t know what we were thinking when we thought we’d try to see EVERYTHING on one trip.  The places we decided to linger and enjoy a few more days, just because.
But most of all, travel journals reveal the ways you are changed by the people you meet.  You can never anticipate the people. The couple in Australia who took us under their wing and have become surprise lifelong friends.  The childhood friend living in London who, recognizing our road-weariness, opened her home to us for 11 days, where we ate home-cooked food, slept in clean sheets, washed our clothes and watched TV until we felt like ourselves again. 
The conversations in trains with strangers that make you see things differently, the people you only know in passing, a day here, a few hours there, their lives continuing before and after you, but for that moment colliding and impacting one another – part of each other’s stories, each other’s travel narratives.

Paul’s travel journal is like this.  Guided by the Spirit, he is traveling around and sharing the message of Jesus Christ, the crucified and Risen one who introduced himself to Paul like a kick in the teeth and radically altered the trajectory of his life forever.  On Paul’s journeys, he doesn’t know where he’ll end up next, he sometimes thinks he’ll go one place and for whatever reason, the door slams shut and God directs him elsewhere.  And it all takes its place in a story, that looking back, makes perfectly undeniable sense. Why, of course we’d go there!  Wasn’t that always the plan?

 When you look back at travel narratives it seems in retrospect that things were meant to go that way all along, indeed, would you have arrived at the same place if they hadn’t? Would you be the same person if things had unfolded differently, if the route had taken a different direction?  The best part is that the story is only THAT story because it went THAT way, if you had met different people, if the timing had been different by a day or two, or someone had been held up a few hours that morning waiting for the cable guy, or overslept and missed a train, if just one of the people had stopped for lunch on the way, the story would be different. 

So when Paul shows up in Philipi, who knows why he didn’t start with the synagogue like he did other places?  Who knows why he and his companions were wandering along a river outside the city on this fine Sabbath day, instead of checking in with the powers that be in their local religious gathering?  What had they heard about this “place of prayer” they set off to discover? And who knew that it would become a sacred place for them, a quiet place they returned to often? 

And surely, as they walked along that day, how could they know they’d meet Lydia?  How could they have imagined this “seller of purple cloth”, this stranger, this established businesswoman who happened to be in this place of prayer that Sabbath day, gathered with other women, this worshiper of God- meaning, a gentile who followed the God of Israel- how could they have imagined she’d have anything to do with them?  Who was she to them a moment before? 
And what if we had her journal?  She didn’t know when she awoke that day that Paul would come wandering up and pull up a rock to chat.  She didn’t know that her life was about to radically change and take whole new direction.

All over this story we see the fingerprints of God, the breath of the Spirit, blowing the story along, leading and prompting people into situations they could never have imagined, and yet, looking back, could never imagine their life without.  Isn’t that just like every story?  And if we were John, with our vision of God’s future leaking into our day to day lives, perhaps we’d be more aware when it’s happening, but most of the time, we’re not.

So Paul meets Lydia.  And when he tells her about Jesus Christ, God opens her heart, and she knows what Paul is telling her before she hears it, it resonates deep in her being, it is meant for her, she is meant for it.  This is her story; she’s ready to live it.  Immediately she is baptized – her whole household is, in fact.  And she urges Paul’s posse to stay with her, and their plans shift; she prevails upon them and they relent and are embraced by the astounding and abundant hospitality of this first Christian convert in Europe.  This Jesus-follower’s house becomes for the road-weary little band a kind of home base, a place to eat home-cooked food and sleep in clean sheets and wash their clothes, a place to which they can return and find comfort and care, find themselves again.  And when Paul and Silas are released from Prison a little later, Lydia takes them in.   
Lydia quickly becomes for them the friend you keep in touch with over years and distance, the one you can send friends to when they’re passing through town and she will throw open her door and croon, “mi casa es su casa” as she hugs them over the threshold.  “Any friend of Paul’s is a friend of mine!” she laughs as she takes your coat and boots.  That was Lydia’s house.

God invites Lydia to the table, quite apart from Paul’s initial plans or intentions, then God brings together these two souls, on different paths in different parts of the world, and weaves them together so that they would both look back and not even know who they were in their lifetime if they hadn’t met one another in a seeming coincidence on that one day back then. 
And not just Paul the individual was changed, but the church that was coming to life, here and there, spreading and growing, in homes and communities, in lives changed and hope shared.  Pastor Lydia, Leader Lydia: Lydia’s house, Lydia’s table and her message, her influence and her energy, Lydia’s hospitality… she embodies the gospel message that Paul wanders around telling people about.  And certainly Paul’s very message itself gets a jolt, a shift, when instead of a Jewish man from Macedonia – as he had expected and intended to meet – the person God bumps him into is a Gentile woman who already knew, but was waiting for an introduction to, Jesus the Christ.
 
And we sit here, the legacy of Lydia and others who were woven into this story, this story of the Risen Christ changing lives, calling people to open their hearts, their lives, their homes to the people that come across their path, to discover and marvel at what mysterious and magnificent stories unfold when the Spirit of God moves and strangers meet. 
What would our travel journals read like?  The story of the Spirit’s prompting and leading in surprising and unexpected ways in each of our lives and in the life of this little community of Jesus-followers?  How might we one day look back and say, Of course! Could it have been any other way?

And standing here in the middle of this unfolding journey – I wonder, when all is said and done, and all the journeys converge around the same table, when we’re gathered together in John’s vision, beyond pain and suffering in the presence of the one in whom all things are made new, when we lean back from the meal and over drinks the travel stories start to come out, what will they reveal?  How will we have been part of another’s journey?  How might we discover we’d unexpectedly joined God’s plans? How will we have recognized God’s fingerprints, gone where the Spirit nudged us?  What will be the stories where we’ve thrown open our doors and hearts to the ones God would have us changed by?  
How are we living this amazing journey?

Fed and Formed

  Exodus 16:1-15 (16-36) This week I spent three days with a very small group of Christians from around their state. This group is just form...