Yesterday at a party, and I was standing in the kitchen, asking
my sister if someone I had just seen outside was a new friend she’d been
telling me about, and while the question was half way out of my mouth, the
person walked in, and I felt busted, and ended up awkwardly cutting off my
sentence and introducing myself instead.
I had acted like she wasn’t there and suddenly she was, and everything
changed.
That’s kind of what happened in this scene. While they were talking about Jesus, he showed up among them.
You guys, they’d been
saying, he’s really alive! We were walking
to Emmaus and this stranger started talking to us, and he turned out to be
Jesus! Were not our hearts burning within us while spoke?
And when we
invited him back for dinner and he broke the bread, suddenly our eyes were
opened and we recognized him!
Without a cell phone to call back and say, “You’ll never believe
what just happened!,” instead they hit the road that same night and had raced
back to where they’d come from, and they were just now sharing these stories in
the wee hours with the rest of them, who, it turned out, had stories of their
own, and suddenly, Jesus himself stood among them.
And they were startled
and terrified and thought they were seeing a ghost.
It doesn’t matter how much we may believe with our head that God
is real, that Jesus is here, that God can intervene, or speak to us, or do
something that turns our life around, we have no rubric for this sort of thing.
So often, when it happens, we are astonished, startled, terrified even.
In fact, all the most profound realities of life are this way-
knowing you are about to have a child is night and day different from someone
placing a tiny screaming stranger in your arms.
We all know in our heads we will one day die, but dying itself? No
matter how much we try to prepare, we will be utterly unqualified, and yet we
will do it anyway.
All the things that call us to our true selves as children of
God, that strip away illusion, the things like love, transformation,
forgiveness – we are not prepared for them, no matter how much we think we may
be, they surprise us. Like waking from a dream, when they come they make life
feel altogether new and different.
And now, here is Jesus. The one they saw die. The one they
buried and began to grieve. He is back. But he’s also different. Like, how you
might be different if death can’t kill you.
Different in a way that isn’t bound by time and space – he keeps appearing
and disappearing where he will. He is unrecognizable at first, and yet, it’s
him.
So they are aghast, and can’t seem to move past it, even seeing his hands and side, and touching him, and they still can't absorb it.
Here,
he finally says, when the staring gets to be too much, Do you have anything to eat? And they get him some fish and he eats
it in front of them. And they watch, until it starts to feel a little normal,
and then they begin settle into the new new,
at least enough to sit and listen to him talk to them like he used to before he
died.
And when he does, he opens up the scriptures to them.
He starts way back and tells how it all fits together, how God’s
unfolding story of love and hope begins way at the beginning, and weaves
through their history, the kings and the prophets and the judges, how all of it
was part of the same trajectory – God made it all for love and call us to love,
and how God came into this world, to set us free from everything that keeps us
hostage, and how God with us walked among them, shared this life with them, and
now, right now, near the platter of fish bones, as the lamp is burning low, and
the sun is just peeking up the horizon, is sitting with them.
And he talks about repentance – remember that word? How it means
changing your mind, letting go your way of seeing things and picking up God’s
way? – that this invitation is to be extended to all the world, beginning right
here, among these people who have done that just moments ago and even still now
are in the midst of it.
And forgiveness of sins – freedom from all that keeps us captive
to the injuries we commit against ourselves and others, all that separates us
from God and each other, release to live for God and for others - this is the
message that they will soon be carrying to everyone, everywhere, starting right
here where they are, in this very place.
And then, before he leads them to a mountaintop and disappears,
Jesus gives them a new identity, a calling. You,
he says, you are witnesses. Your role is that of a witness.
Witnesses testify to what they have seen or experienced.
Witnesses don’t become witnesses because they believe or can recite back
something specific.
A witness isn’t skilled
worker with training, or a stellar student with perfect test scores; a witness
doesn’t prove their abilities or worth in order they become one.
Witnesses are not directors.
They aren’t tour guides or
teachers; they aren’t trying to decide where things will go or how they should
turn out, or make anyone else decide anything either.
They don’t interpret things or turn them into
lessons.
They simply experience something, and then tell about it.
That’s what
witnesses do.
These people, in their joy, disbelieving and still wondering, were
witnesses.
And what these witnesses had to share, so far, was that Jesus
came among them. Ate some fish. Told them about the scriptures. Disappeared
from their sight. The same Jesus they had seen teach and heal and suffer and
die. That’s what they have to tell.
That’s what they tell each other; every time they get together,
they witness to what they’ve experienced, what they felt when they heard him
call them by name, what they thought when they realized it was him standing
among them, what happened inside them when their eyes were opened and they
recognized him, or how their hearts were burning within them, or what they
heard when he unpacked the scriptures and told how it all fit together.
They witness.
And the act of witnessing to each other opens up the space
between them where Jesus can encounter them all over again. It’s the place the
Holy Spirit likes to hang out. Between us.
There is no such thing yet as church. There are no Christians.
There isn’t a bible – just the beginning of one –the Hebrew
Scriptures we call the Old Testament. They studied and learned and knew the
same scriptures we hold here before us. Except the parts that weren’t written
yet because they were happening to them right then, so that we can read about
it now, so that we can witness the
witnesses witnessing the witnesses.
Because, you know where this
is going, right?
We are witnesses too.
We are witnesses to the God
who is witnessed through this book. I
f you want to see who God is, look at
Jesus, and if you want to see who Jesus is, look in this book. And here he is,
sitting with his friends, showing them how this whole story fits together.
The Holy Spirit meets us we
read together what they read; this is our family scrapbook of meaning, filled with letters,
laws, poetry and prose, music and metaphors, heartbroken lament and frustrated complaints,
euphoric praise and joyful celebration, retellings of the lives of the leaders
and the losers in both gripping and boring ways, describing the ongoing
struggles of a people to be faithful, and the ongoing faithfulness of a God
that never wavers – it all witnesses to this one big thing God is doing, has
always been doing, and will never stop doing: This most real and true
thing about love and repentance, forgiveness and new life, belonging, healing
and hope.
You and I are part of that
story.
As witnesses, we are called to pay attention.
To notice and share about
where we see Jesus.
And not unlike these
disciples, we might not recognize him at first, sometimes not until we hear him
call us by name.
And sometimes we will
know him in the breaking of the bread- as we share meals with each other side
by side in our humanity, or we will know he was there, talking to us, when our
hearts burn within us and we say to each other, wait, back there when that was happening, did you feel it too?
And like all those who saw the risen Christ
in the flesh, just when we seem to grasp hold of him he vanishes; he’s elusive,
Jesus can’t be captured and owned.
He comes and goes as he pleases.
But instead of giving up, we
keep witnessing, and practicing being witnesses.
So we have to get together
with each other and tell our stories.
And in a few weeks when we hear how church starts, we'll notice that it starts just like
that, because that’s actually exactly what church is – people breaking bread together
and telling stories of how they see Jesus, and looking at scripture together at
the words of the witnesses who’ve gone before, and trusting that through these
words God will speak to us right now.
This is not about believing
something with your head and getting others to think the same way.
This is
about trusting something with your life and telling what that feels like.
And
trust is that kind of thing that you only learn by doing.
You put one foot tentatively
out, maybe with wonder and disbelief, even, and then you start to lean some
weight on it until you can step out with the other foot and stand, and then the
next, and soon you look back and see how much trusting you’ve done and how far
you’ve come.
And
you witness about that too, Hey look! I trust! Look how much trusting I’ve done! And people can celebrate with you and share
about their own trusting that might help you to trust even more, until you’re a
bunch of witnesses whose lives are part of this one big thing God is doing,
every day part of it, people who are learning to watch for, each moment, where
is God going to show up next. And when we have trouble
trusting, we share that too, God is there too, and others trust for us, and
that’s also what it means to be witnesses.
We
are going to give the kids new bibles in a few minutes.
And we will tell them we trust God to speak to us
through these words.
That is, we act like God will, and we lean in and expect
it to happen, and the trust grows from there. The Holy Spirit, we will tell them, uses these words to teach us, challenge us, encourage us. And because this bible shows us who Jesus
is, it helps us see Jesus in our own lives and in the world around us.
These bibles show us God is love, forgiveness is
real, life is hard, people are always messing up and hurting each other, and
God keeps on loving us.
They witness to us, so that we can witness too.
And the wonderful thing about the bible is that
because God is not a ghost relic of a past devout era, or an imaginary notion
of comfort or authority, not an idea to believe in, or a concept to learn
about, but because God is real, beyond the
cosmos and here in our own lives, right
now, that means that you might open your bible and God will use it to tell
you what you need to hear right now. God will speak right to you through words
that have spoken to people for centuries.
And if right now you are sad or scared, and at
another time in your life you feel confused and lost, or hopeful and peaceful, God
may use the very same verses and tell you something new through it, speak right
into your situation, in a different way than the last time you read it.
And the person sitting next to you? They may have
something altogether different happening in their life, and God might talk to
them through the same scripture, exactly what they need to hear, which may be different
than what you’ve heard!
This is why we do faith in community. We are in
this together. Our lives are witnesses to each other. We read the bible
together because we learn from each other and we witness God in each other’s
lives –sometimes more quickly than in our own.
So by giving the kids bibles, we are saying to
them, Your story is part of God’s story,
and it is part of our story. Together we will watch for God in the world and in
each other’s lives. We will share our
insights and our experiences. We will pray for each other and trust that our
lives are part of the one big thing God is doing.
Like those first witnesses long ago, we come here
with each other to be called back to our true selves as children of God,
to have illusions stripped away, to be reawakened to love, forgiveness, transformation
and the other truest things in life, to share our experiences and encounters,
and to feel overwhelmed and astonished sometimes, as the new normal sets in and
we begin to recognize Jesus, in that space where the Holy Spirit likes to hang
out, between us.
And I promise that, from time to
time, when we’re not expecting it, we too will find that while we are talking
about Jesus, he shows up right here among us.
Amen.
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