This weekend I was
remembering when, a few years ago, I traveled to Kansas City to visit my sister’s
family. I stayed in the bedroom of my then 8-year-old nephew, Vincent, amongst
legos and bugs pinned to velvet plaques, stars glued to the ceiling and
collections of books about dogs. After
he’d oriented me to the important things in his room and left me alone, I
realized there was music playing softly. It was a cd with the Sunday school
songs I had grown up with: Jesus loves
me, I’ve got the joy down in my heart, Jesus loves the little children, Oh, how
I love Jesus, and others, on a mellow cd where they were paced, I
discovered, to match the beating of a heart.
The cd was set on repeat.
When he came back in I said,
“Vincent, that music is so relaxing.”
He said, “Yeah, I think so
too. I like to sleep with it on. Hey!
maybe you could too!”
So when I went to bed that
night I did not turn it off. Throughout
the night when I would stir I would catch morsels of music, words that I had grown
up hearing, comfortable, familiar, somehow part of me. They wove themselves in and out of my
dreams. When I awoke, the songs of my
childhood and my faith gently called me back to day.
“Keep these words that I am giving you. Recite them
to your children. Talk about them when
you are at home and away, when you lie down and
when you rise..."
You are my children who I delivered
from the land of Egypt. I am your God.
You shall love Yahweh your God.
It’s all God
has ever wanted. Back and forth this
tumultuous relationship goes throughout time – from the beginning when God
breathed it all into being and placed the tree of God’s vulnerability among
them, Choose me, choose life, I will show
you the way to live fully, wholly. And instead they choose not to trust the
God who loved them, and to look after themselves and turn against one another.
And on and on it goes, rolling through centuries and millennia, God’s
relentless love and humanity’s turning away, and God’s absolute refusal to let
them go.
There are lots
of reasons, I suppose, why people turn away from love. In this story, they don’t even know yet that
they have.
What is it
like to have lost your memory? To have forgotten who you are, what shaped you,
where you come from, where you’re going? What is it to be not just one, but a
whole people like this? Yesterday disregarded, tomorrow uncertain. Trapped in eternal present, and unpleasant
present, at that.
So what, then,
was it like for them when those scrolls were opened? What was it like to hear a story that was
true about you and you never knew it?
What was it like, after more than a lifetime of ruthless, unpredictable and
oppressive authority, lawless self-preservation, fear and corruption, to being
gathered one day in the square, by your young king and told that when cleaning
out and repairing the temple this was
found: the law, the ten commandments,
the history. The word of God.
What was it
like to hear the words aloud that your ancestors wrote, a message from God in
their voice, guiding their lives and it was supposed to guide yours too, but
you’ve never even heard of it before?
Like learning your own middle name for the first time. Discovering you’re adopted, or that you’ve
got a whole family of people you never knew, or that you’re incognito
royalty. It’s the Aboriginal lost
children of Australia stolen from their people and raised in white homes
hearing their language for the first time. It’s a dug up time capsule not only
introducing your ancestors but blowing misconceptions about your own identity
out of the water. It’s an opening of
your own past that completely alters the present and rewrites the future.
I picture
stillness over the crowd, barely a breeze, rapt attention and dead silence, not
a throat-clear among them, as the words are read:
My people, here is who you are! And
here is how I designed life to work best, together and not just alone, for
others and not just yourself, giving and not just taking, sharing and not
hoarding, resting and not just toil. Each one treasured, all together
belonging. Forgiven, free. Here’s the relationship you were meant for –
with me, with each other. You belong to
me. I have chosen you for a special purpose in the world – I will care for you
and you will live within my care so that you can care for others.
And the crowd
holds its collective breath as these words sink deep into their souls.
And the most
painful and poignant part of all of it, I imagine, is standing there listening
when the words are read, Whatever
happens, my children, Do not forget this!
In fact, rehearse it, Teach it to your
children, talk about it when you’re awake and dream it when you’re asleep,
Discuss it over dinner, leave post-its lying around, tuck it in your purse and
have it in your pocket and Literally stick it to your own forehead so you don’t
forget. It’s that important.
And you’re
standing there hearing this as the third generation of people who’ve completely forgotten. You’ve never told it to your children and you
never heard it from your parents. You’ve
never discussed it over dinner let alone carried it with you in your pocket or
plastered it to your forehead. You’re hearing it for the very first time.
All the ways
it could have been.
All you’ve
done that you can’t undo. All you
would’ve done differently had you known. Hope and shame comingled.
Joy and sorrow
welling up and spilling over.
All together you stand there
remembering what you never knew.
Huldah the prophetess knew.
She recognized the
scriptures when they brought it to her.
She told them what these words were and she told them what God was
waiting to say when they finally looked up and noticed God again.
How did she know? How could she be the one- she, and not even the priest - who could
speak with confidence when the people were finally ready to hear again the
truth of their situation? How did she
alone remember?
She was not alone. The prophets,
who pointed out all the heartbreaking ways things were not as should be, and who
energized the people with the promise of a future different than the pain of
the present, these prophets did not exist in a vacuum.
They came from communities, tiny remnants of
people who remembered the story, who were raised with it as part of their lives
when everyone else forgot. They listened
to the songs as they fell asleep; they heard the tales over dinner and
rehearsed the lessons in the fields or the streets. They prayed to Yahweh, and shared life with
the living God when everyone else had left God long before for lifeless idols
of their own making.
Even when the whole people
had forgotten, even when perhaps nearly all the copies of the book of the law
had been lost or destroyed, even when the kings of Judah was behaving worse
than the worst of their enemies, and the cruelty and suffering was unending,
there were some who remembered. Some who kept the memory alive for the rest of
them.
It is said Huldah, and her
relative Jeremiah the prophet, were decedents of Rahab and Joshua – Rahab, the
prostitute who helped the Israelite spies into the Promised Land, and Joshua,
who fought the battle of Jericho, Rahab who is mentioned in the geneology of
Jesus, and Joshua who stood shoulder to shoulder with the other children of God
on the verge of the promised land, as these children now stood, all together,
listening to the words of God spoken out to them, never forget.
And they didn’t. For centuries the offspring of Rahab
and Joshua nurtured the message, passed it on in the milk to their children, whispered
it in prayers, breathing it in at their waking to the sun and exhaling it every
night as they scrambled into bed – Yahweh
is our God. Love him only. Yahweh who delivered
our grandparents out of slavery – calls to us still. Each and every day. This
is whose we are. This is who we are. We are children of the living God. Never forget.
And so this they become
keepers of the truth that the rest of the world has forgotten. They let it fill their bones, their dreams, their blood and heartbeat. They live their lives, and teach their
children to live, awake, and from them come prophets, who can answer the
questions when they are finally raised again.
All around us is a world
that has forgotten. Even when we momentarily remember, every single day we
ourselves keep forgetting. Whose we are.
Who we are.
There are those who would
like us all to be ruled by fear.
Unspeakable violence and total disregard for human life and dignity, is
their weapon of choice.
And there are also those who use subtle lies to prey on biases that make us mistrust each other and close ourselves off into camps of us and them. And so we perpetuate stereotpyes, and swallow falsehoods, and believe that we ourselves are never, ever good enough, but we are so much better than them, whichever them we chose to despise most at the moment.
And there are also those who use subtle lies to prey on biases that make us mistrust each other and close ourselves off into camps of us and them. And so we perpetuate stereotpyes, and swallow falsehoods, and believe that we ourselves are never, ever good enough, but we are so much better than them, whichever them we chose to despise most at the moment.
And the forgetting
continues. Because hate makes us feel
powerful, and security is an irresistible attraction, and strength is so much
more enticing than weakness.
There are lots of reasons
people turn away from love.
But now, I am going to tell
you something true about yourself and about us, and I want you to receive it,
to take it in:
You are part of those who
don’t turn away from love.
One day all
the world will know again the love of God, will live in love, and peace, and
justice, forgiveness and generosity, and for now, and we are part of the people
who keep that reality alive, who live and breathe and have our being the One
who is love.
We help each other watch for
God, and follow God, and see the world as belonging to God. We rehearse the real
reality by remembering the faithfulness of God in the past, and telling the
stories that have shaped our journey as individuals, as communities, as the
church, as God’s people, in scripture, in our lives. We hold that memory together, on behalf if
the world. It is our holy work.
In fact, prophets are grown
here.
Look around the room, together, we
are prophet.
So that means that we must grieve together that things are not as
they should be.
We must lament in honesty together; talk about what separates
people from each other. We look
open-eyed and open-hearted at injustice and brokenness and suffering and horror.
Because here
is the kingdom of God- we grieve when
someone else is grieving. We stand in solidarity with someone else’s suffering.
It is what makes us who we are. Instead of denial or anxiety or avoidance, we openly
name death in all its forms and we mourn
it. And not because we’re somehow
exempt from it, but because we participate; even in our own lives we’re part of
what shouldn’t be.
So grieving together,
on behalf of the world, is our holy work.
But we also practice hope.
We live out of promises
yet to be kept, we find strength from God’s future to treat each other as God
sees us, we find courage to live unafraid to reach out to others, to see and be
seen, to listen and be heard. We
recognize all people as children of God and treat them that way, because one
day these glimpses we see will be realized in all fullness.
We are resurrection people
that understand that death is not the end, that hatred and violence and despair
may seem so strong and so eternal, but there is a greater reality still, and
love has the final word.
And so hoping
together, on behalf of the whole, beautiful and broken world, is also our holy
work.
And to do this we need
language and imagery that we share, words and metaphors that defines us and
describes reality for us. So we wrestle
through difficult things and we welcome stories and perspectives and insights
and questions, because they help us practice the real reality. And we use song and art and
prayer and laughter and beauty and broken bread and spilled wine and cooked
meals and long conversations and quiet moments and all different learning
styles and all different gifts gathered in this quirky, beloved community. We gather together in order to become fluent in our ability to communicate the
deep and important things God is stirring up all around us.
Because this kind of dialogue together, on
behalf of the famished and word-weary world, is our holy work as well.
Because the world has
forgotten; its memory is short.
And we are here in our own
weakness and brokenness, not afraid to feel the pain of love, to remind the
world who it really is: Created by God,
each one loved by her creator. All together made for life and love. In astonishing diversity made for harmony and
wholeness. We live out this Kingdom of God
reality in defiance of despair, and on behalf of a world that has forgotten,
but we also live it out in sure anticipation.
We wait. Like the prophets of old. Because we know it’s coming.
It’s not happily ever after
for the children of God in our story today.
In just 40 or so years, Babylon will take over
the land and destroy the temple that Josiah is working so hard to restore. The children of God will be scattered. Hard things are coming.
But right now, the people
are suddenly remembering who they are. They
are back in the arms of their God – reconnected to their source. They have turned back toward love, and all
over again, they are being set free.
And
when they wake up to who they are, to whose they are, it changes how they
experience everything: all that
they’ve been through and all that they are in now, and everything that is to
come.
They will need this change to see
them through the days to come.
Advent is coming.
The time
of darkness where we wait for the light of Jesus that comes into the world.
The
time of longing and honesty, where we hold grief and hope on behalf of us
all.
Advent is holy work, brothers and
sisters.
And in these coming weeks the
world will make it seem like sorrow can be quenched with shiny wrapping paper
and cheap gifts, like distraction is the same as hope.
But there is a truth that
goes deeper and reaches back further, through struggle and pain, past amnesia
and unknowing, a love beyond all denying and turning away and forgetting, that
plunges into death and roars joyfully back into life again, that stretches
strong from the beginning of everything out past all eternity, that comes in
the form of weakness and simplicity as a tiny infant, seemingly helpless in a
great big world.
And even in this moment,
this love holds you.
I am the Lord your God.
Be open.
Remember.
Grieve.
Hope.
And share it, however you
are able, with each other.
Now, let it pulse through
you with each beat of your heart.
Put it on repeat, you precious
ones, and in the darkness we will never stop listening.
Amen.
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