One evening last week Maisy asked me to tell her the story of Andy's and my trip
around the world. That happened the first year of our marriage, 15 years
ago. I began to tell her the story and
both kids got really interested. They kept leaping from their seats and going
to the art piece on the wall that has thumbnail photographs asking, Was that
here? Is this a picture of that?
When I
had finished they asked if I would fill in the time between then and now, with
stories. I started to talk, and they
listened with laughter, gasps, shouts and rapt silence, we went on and on,
through our time in New Jersey, our new puppy, longing for a baby, Owen’s birth
and moving to Minnesota, getting a new home and making friends, and by the time
I got to Maisy as a baby, an hour and a half had gone by and we all leaned back
with a satisfied sigh.
I think that somehow Andy and I got cooler in their eyes (You lived in California!? You’ve
been to Rome!?) But also, they had a better sense of who they are and where they came
from, the narrative of their lives and their family, and I noticed in the
telling of it all the places I said, “And we prayed for…” or “And it was just
what we needed…” or “We didn’t know what to do…” and “God took care of us.”
Last week we talked about the Ten Words – the words God gave to the
people to define them no longer as slaves, now as free, as belonging to God
instead of Pharaoh. These were rules for the free life, the life of living free
for relationship with God and others, as wholly fully who the people were
created to be.
Unfortunately, it’s not as easy as knowing or hearing them, they
had a very difficult time believing and trusting that God would care for them,
and seeing themselves as responsible parties in the relationship – that who
they were and how they lived mattered to God.
Repeatedly they distrusted God, turned away from God, begged to go back
to slavery, complained about what was happening, doubted God’s provision. When
they finally did arrive at the doorstep to the Promised Land, Canaan, they
didn’t believe God could get them in. So
God tells that generation that what they’d feared would happen all along would come to pass after all, and they would indeed die in the wilderness. It is the next
generation, their children, who will enter the Promised Land.
In the middle of all this, Moses dies, and leadership changes to
Joshua, who leads them in the bizarre conquest of Canaan and all the battles
that follow as they begin to establish themselves in the land and their
identity develops. And now, we come to
the point in their story where Joshua is coming to the end of his life, speaking to
the children of those who passed through the waters about the choice set before
them now that they’ve arrived in the longed-after promise. So he gets up and
gives a speech.
He tells the stories of who
they are and where they came from, by telling them the story of God with them. Their own story. He reaches way back and begins, God says, Long ago,
your ancestors lived beyond the river… and he begins to tell them about
Abraham and Sarah, and Isaac and Rebekah, and Jacob and Esau, and Joseph in
Egypt, and then Moses and Miriam and the Red sea and how God delivered them.
He
stands there and tells them the stories that brought them to this point, the
situations and experiences that made them who they are. But these stories are not just about them, they are God’s story, God’s
love and faithfulness and anger and forgiveness and how God has dealt with them
all through the past to this very moment, the fulfillment of the promise that
has shaped them for a generation.
And he
reminds them of the covenant God made with their parents, and says to them, Now
it’s your covenant, and it’s your turn to respond to God. Choose this day
who you will serve. There are, and always will be, many options from whatever
lands we’ve come and those we bump up against, but as for me, and my household,
we will serve the Lord.
You are invited, always invited, to claim your own chosenness, to live
in the covenant with God, to participate with God in what God has built you for
– life in the freedom of God, life that shares in hope and healing, life with
God as God instead of whatever other gods rule the land.
And in the hard times
along the journey they’ve remembered the covenant, and now, in a good time,
when it seems they’ve reached what they’ve longed for, the people are reminded
again who it is who holds them, who has been faithful in the past and promises
to be faithful in the future.
God is our refuge and strength. No matter what happens.
If the very
mountains themselves crumble, God is our help. Bigger than nations and armies and might, bigger than deadlines and
pressures and test scores and test results, God is the one who holds us – the
Lord of Hosts is with us, the God of Jacob is our stronghold.
Be Still and know that I am God.
This is the same advice given to theIsraelites just as the Red Sea opens up – be still and watch me be God for you.
Be still and know that I am God.
There are always plenty of other gods vying for our attention and our
worship, gods of commerce and power and winning, gods of competition and
jealousy, gods of selfish satisfaction and disconnected apathy. The world is always ready with an answer to
tell you who you are and who you really belong to, or don’t. Take your pick,
there are plenty to choose from.
But
know that you are choosing.
There is no ignoring that. So be
intentional about it.
Will you serve the gods that seek to enslave you again,
or will you serve the God who sets you free? The God who has been faithful to
you for generations and who sees you and knows you even now?
I spent this week at a conference on storytelling –but not just
stories, our own personal stories. True stories. Stories of meaningful things in our lives, things that end up making us who we are.
Stories that have shaped us. And it was a reminder that ordinary-looking people are all
extraordinary: brave, weak, complicated survivors, filled with so much beauty our eyes brim
up and overflow when they reveal even a small part of it to us.
Big stories or small, funny or sad, it turns
out we all have more stories than we could ever count hiding underneath our
skin. And we hardly ever revisit those stories, but when we do, they are
wells, springs that bubble up, that continue to feed and nourish us. Our old stories can tell us new things, show
us new insights, be places God meets us again in completely new ways. When we revisit our stories we
remember who we are and are reminded whose we are.
The conference included one evening when seven of these people stood up in
front of strangers in a restaurant, sharing stories under the theme “Love Hurts.” The organizer had gotten a local music group
to play at the breaks between stories – though the musicians didn’t know anything about the event
until they arrived.
After hearing about
a broken-hearted college crush, a father and son struggling to be close, a child
showing someone the way home on a dark night in a foreign place, a friend’s suicide attempt, and
an estranged friendship that is longing for closure, the musician got up and said to the crowd, “There
is more power in this room than all the electronic devices in the world.” Our stories are powerful. It turns out that
through the telling and receiving of these stories we experience God.
But how often do we stop, in our crazy-busy lives, to receive our own, or anyone else’s, stories? We’re so
forward-focused and driven that we struggle to look back, unless it’s with
regret or the briefest bout of nostalgia. Consequently, we miss the rich gift that is our lives, and the way
God’s story is played out within it. God
has always been with us, and is always up to something in our lives, even when we
haven’t recognized it.
This is the 4th
commandment, by the way. Stop. Remember, Observe. Do this regularly. See again that you belong to God; see again that
you are free to love and live. Live in
the story you are in, soak it in, share the stories of others. Pay attention.
Tonight we are lingering on Psalm 46.
Filled with scenes of God’s deliverance and care, God’s promise and
God’s presence. Times of turmoil, fear,
unknown, when the things around us seem too big, or when we ourselves act as
though we are bigger than we are. God is a refuge, strength, a present help,
nourishes us like a stream making glad a whole city, dwelling among us, holding
us steady. Cease striving, it says, be
still, stop running, and know. Be still
and you will know.
Being Still with our Stories:
Now it's our covenant. It's our turn to respond to God. We are going to take a few minutes and hold open our lives to God,
inviting God to help us to remember God’s presence, to meet us in our own
stories, in the ways God has been present to us in the past. So that we may be fed from that spring, so
that we may move into our week with a deeper sense of whose we are, and how God
has brought us to this place, and a wider welcome for who we are, and who God
has made us to be. And we will do this
by being still, and letting the Spirit of God speak to us through our own
memories, imagination and open hearts.
We moved into a guided prayer time, from an exercise shared by Mark Yacconelli, "Praying Sacred Moments," that asks people to recall a moment they felt was sacred, to engage the senses in remembering the moment, to allow the sense of God's presence from that moment to swell within them even now, to consider a symbol they could take from the moment to help them recall and connect with how God met them in that time, and finally, to discern if there is an invitation from God in the experience that could impact their life now. Our time ended with floating tea lights on water - representing all that we are carrying in prayer to God - as a way of entrusting ourselves to God's care.
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