(Revelation 21:10,22-22:5)
Sometimes I crave peace. And by
peace, I mean a moment of silence, when I can hear myself think and feel my
body breathe, without high volume rambunctious children and excitable dogs
swarming around me.
Or I mean universal
relief, a deep and painful yearning for a break in the endless suffering and violence,
just a breath in and out when the world doesn’t feel like its heading straight to
hell in a handbasket.
Or by peace I mean a personal
pause, when the many and delicately balanced plates I am spinning all at once
as I run about juggling responsibilities and obligations don’t seem about to
come crashing down on my head.
I
crave the peace of a fantastically good night sleep, waking up completely
refreshed without a care in the world for the first few delicious moments
before the day dawns new.
I do things to try to make peace
happen. Some of these things are more effective than others.
I drink chamomile
tea before bed and jot down worries and tasks on a notepad so I don’t have to
hang onto them in case I forget.
I answer tense emails and phone calls immediately so I don’t have to sit in
the discomfort of minor conflict or unpleasant duty one second longer than necessary.
I send checks and sign petitions,
and I beg God for mercy, and shut off the news and call my sister to vent.
I lift my head into the swirling
chaos of my house and I scream, “Everybody stop screaming!” And when I’m lucky enough to have it, I
cling fiercely to the fragile stability of a temporary lack of dread -
terrified, if I am honest, that it will slip from my fingers: Thank God for no medical news hovering at
the moment, nobody in my family in any serious trouble, the demons of loss
and pain momentarily held at bay.
So when I hear Jesus say, Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to
you, every fiber of my being says, Yes,
please.
In this Easter season, in this time
of “I have seen the Lord” – where we share resurrection stories, encounter
stories, stories of having seen God, today we ponder what it means to see God
in the Spirit. The Holy Spirit,
the Advocate, the Comforter, the Peace.
Sitting, as we are, on the threshold
of Pentecost, today we’re looking back with the disciples at what Jesus said to
them before his death, before everything changed, before it was all lost and
then found again, taken away and then given back new, different, mysterious and
ungraspable. Back before Mary
heard the voice of the risen Jesus and Thomas touched the side of the risen
Jesus and Peter tasted grilled fish and forgiveness and the risen Jesus set him
free sent him out and to feed his sheep.
When Jesus tells them these things,
first that he is going to die, that one of them will betray him, that Peter
will deny him, that he has always loved them, that loving one another as he has
loved them is his commandment, his word to them, and that one day the Father
will come home and dwell with them and this Spirit Advocate thingy is coming
and peace he gives to them...he knows they aren’t getting what
he is saying. But he goes on saying it anyway – He is hoping that if he says it
enough and emphasizes what he is saying that after he is gone they will
remember what he said and begin to grasp its meaning eventually. This is Jesus’ goodbye and they have yet
to realize it fully.
Here he sits, the Creator of all,
alongside and within the creation he loves, knowing his time with them in this
way is going to end, even if these he loves do not. He is God-with-us, about to leave us, about to be killed by
us, to be separated from all that God loves by taking on all that separates us
from God.
This “farewell discourse,” as it is
known, this speech of Jesus to his disciples in John, goes on for four chapters. Jesus can’t seem to bring
himself to be succinct, and I can’t blame him; he knows this is it – and he keeps
emphasizing that he is from the Father and that they are brought into the love
of the Father to the Son, that to follow him means to abide in that love, to
remain in that love, to cling to that vine and let the love that flows through
them produce the fruit in their lives, bless the world through them – even this
world that wont understand what it’s seeing, and he says it a lot and in
different ways and repeats himself again and again.
And I imagine eyelids drooping,
concentration waning and perhaps snapping back in now and then, like when he suddenly
says something really clear and simple, like peace I leave with you.
Do not let your hearts be troubled
and do not be afraid. Or
something really confusing and obscure, like the Father will send you the Spirit, the Advocate, which means, the One
who comes alongside, the comforter, and this One will keep teaching you and
reminding you of what I have said. Huh?
But still Jesus talks, insistent,
pained, passionate. And it seems
so counterintuitive and unfathomable that the Word that was in the beginning speaking
the world into being which is finally in the world, dwelling among, abiding
with, is about to leave them so violently.
After he died they must have sat
around rehashing all that he had said, picking it apart, trying to remember
what words he used, how he emphasized them, what he must have meant. He prayed for them too – lifted them up
to God right in front of them – you’ll hear a bit of that prayer next week,
God, these that I have loved, you love, bring
them into our love. And they must have sat there recalling it all, in anguish
and turmoil and confusion, stewing in fear and dwelling all that is the very
opposite of peace, wondering what it all meant, and if they’d ever feel ok
again.
But God’s reunion plan is still in
full swing. And this is part of
what Jesus is trying to tell them.
Remember we discovered on our journey through the Old Testament that no
matter what happens, God isn’t going to let go?
First the God of love acts for the
world as Creator, walking in the garden in the cool of the evening with Adam
and Eve, and when sin separated God from the beloved creatures God had made,
God’s action kept going, adapting strategy, relentlessly pursuing, endlessly
wooing, eventually choosing one man, Abraham, then a family, and then a nation,
to bless the world and love the world, then kings and prophets are pulled in
and finally the God of love acts by coming into the world in the flesh, this
time as a helpless earth creature too, to share life with us, and take on all
our pain and suffering, to heal and point to hope and live out love alongside
us, and then to die just as we all must do, but breaking death’s eternal chokehold
and promising life everlasting.
This God of love isn’t
finished. Not ever. And God didn’t pause everything after
Jesus. Or distance Godself until the very end. God continues acting.
God is still here, abiding with us,
standing by us, filling us each moment with breath and life, moving the world
toward love and redemption. This
is what Jesus is trying to tell them. Jesus is exiting the scene, but the Holy
Spirit is coming. The God of love
within and between and around us, the Spirit of the love of the Father to the Son,
the very energy of connection and intimacy, the fabric and stuff of abiding, the
“with us” part of “God with us” is with us now, as we are with each other, connecting
us into the love of God, and sustaining us until the day when God will come
again in fullness and flesh and wipe every tear from our eye and live here
forever in God’s eternal home and life will be as it was meant to be.
Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. Not as the world
gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled. And do not let them be afraid.
My peace, Jesus says. The peace I
have. The connection and relationship that sustains me, this peace now sustains
you. You are drawn into the source of my peace: the abiding love of the Divine
relationship.
Not as the world gives. Not
relief from the clamor, fleeting and temporary, not a pause in the conflict,
striven for and fought over, not a reprieve from internal terror, shaky and
shallow. But real peace. The Peace of God with us.
Through Jesus Christ we
are pulled into the love that was in the beginning bringing all things into
being and never, ever ends. We are
pulled into that love and given the strength, in all things, to live in love,
and to love others, to abide in hope and trust, instead of living in isolation
or fear, to ourselves, be continually brought into being by the God of love.
I am leaving you, my beloved ones, Jesus says, trying to prepare them for what is about to happen. But
the Father will send in my name the another who will remind you of all this and
teach you and hold you steady.
And later on, we see the risen
Jesus breathe on them, and say to them, Receive
the Holy Spirit. Receive the one who hovered
over the waters at creation; receive the one who entered the nostrils of the
earth creature, formed from the dust, and awakened it into being when God
breathed life into Adam. Receive
the one who is the stuff of the relationship, the intimacy of
abiding, the love between the Father and the Son – As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you, remain, abide, live,
be, in my love. And do not let
your hearts be troubled.
This is peace. That whatever threatens to crash down
around us, whatever continues to slam up against us, whatever overshadows us
and makes us feel afraid, or abandoned or defeated, cannot prevail. We are held within the very love of God.
Breathe in, breathe
out.
Feel the breath of life
within you.
Close your eyes and
let your spirit open up.
Feel it awaken,
find its rhythm, alongside the Holy Spirit, the with-us of God-with-us, who is
with us now.
Know the eternal
relationship of love is holding you fast.
Peace to you.
The Peace of Christ to you.
Amen.
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